Or should I say another week of HELL comes to an end!! Thank gosh it has come to an end this week was similar to last week been sick most of the week,dealing with stupid people who don't know how to use common sense and my opinion in my marriage amounting to nothing. I mean if we agree on something or its right there in PLAIN sight in black and white why ask me or do the complete opposite of what we talked about. Seriously I mean come on!!! Why are we even married if my opinions on MAJOR situations are taken in consideration or you say okay we will do it that way but when I am not there or looking you go an do something COMPLETELY DIFFERENT then what we agreed on. I mean use your common sense sometimes I swear I feel like I am talking to a kid instead of my husband. While I understand I am NOT the EASIEST person to live with especially right now you knew when we got together I had mental medical problems and relied on my medicine to control my anger and everything else but,right now we can't afford them let alone a pot to piss in so to speak. I am not going to lie I have been mean and hateful but what can I do I try to control my anger,mood swings and everything else but its hard when I know I need my meds and we can't afford them with only one of us working. I have tried getting a job everything goes good til the interview and even I feel that those go well but never get a call back :*(

I haven't really laid how I feel about things out on the line lately but I am going to be doing it REAL SOON. I mean seriously there are so many people having kids who shouldn't even be having them to begin with I mean come on get with it 23 years old 3 kids and trying for more cause all you have are little boys and you want a little girl?!?!?!?! People seriously need to get a grip on life there was a girl I use to be friends with who claims she is Bipolar and all this other stuff well I believe she is WAY BEYOND that when all the talk of 2012 came about she told me she would rather drown her kids and husband followed by drowning herself before the world came to an end because she would be damned if she was going to burn to death. I mean I am not all that religious or anything but I do believe in God,Devil,Heaven and Hell and well if you ask me if you do a murder suicide you are going to burn in hell!?! So either way she would be burning right? Follow me here NUT CASE!!!

Another thing that gets me is why do people only come to me when they have a problem? I mean I have ENOUGH problems of my own that barely anyone wants to sit and listen to aside from Samantha,Hayley and Crys I mean I listen to EVERY ONE'S problems even if I think they are the stupidest problems in the world. I mean don't come to me complaining about money issues and you not having a job if all you are going to do just as soon as you get money turn around and blow it on non sense shit. Yes I will admit I spend money on unnecessary things here and there but it is VERY RARE!!! Bills first and necessities that we NEED then may go buy things we WANT but the IMPORTANT things are always paid for FIRST!!

I can't stand when people think money is everything and that they must flaunt it when they have it or brag about all the new stuff they just bought. Don't brag about spending a bunch of money then come to me complaining about how you have NO money for food or gas I mean think with your brain. I know a lot of people who stood in the WRONG fucking line when brains were being handed out. God said Brains NOT Trains so do the world a favor go trade your Train in for a Brain.

People around here need to learn to drive I swear to you the Wal*Mart parking lot is one of the WORST places to ever be whether you are driving in the parking lot or walking in it. The other day Anthony and I went to Wal*Mart to grab a few things for care packages and I found a parking spot someone was backing out of it so I was waiting well this other bitch pulls up like blocking the car backing out in an another car was trying to go around the stupid bitch but she kept moving in turn made the other car almost hit me head on. I was on the phone talking to Samantha while all this was going on in the parking lot and the moron who was all pissed over this parking spot rolls down her window are you kidding cuss me over a parking spot I was there FIRST dumbass. Then on the way out walking to the car to get in to leave there was this Toyota truck like literally driving on the back of my flip flops I am sorry that you have to go slow in the parking lot Mr. I am in a fucking hurry. That parking lot will end up being the death of me!!!

Ugh well I am off for the night will blog again later!!!!