Well here it is 2011 an WOW an I sure glad to see 2010 GONE!! That year held some good times but mainly horrible times I am glad to see go! December 9th,2010 my husband FINALLY was able to come home from New Mexico he is in the Inactive Ready Reserves an is studying to retake the ASVAB to score higher incase he has to reclass an so he can go Active :) Feels so good to be falling asleep in his arms at night one of the best feelings in the world!! 

Now that Tony is home we are back to Trying to Conceive so wish us luck we want a baby more then anything in the world. So we NEED any extra baby dust we can get :) 

Thanksgiving came an went as well as Christmas my sister never brought my niece over to have Aunt Amber time. An there was an excuse of why they were LATE to Christmas dinner an why she didn't get my parents anything for Christmas BUT could brag about her husband's $15/hr job an how she went out to eat an had no worries of how much money was in the bank or going over in their account. Seriously if all you are going to do is come over an brag or bitch just keep your fucking ass at home. 

An old friend of mine who didn't agree with alot of my Facebook posts emailed me yesterday an wanted to start the New Year out with a clean slate an she apologized for being immature about the situation an blowing it out of proportion. Honestly I have missed our conversations we went 8 months without talking all because I got SICK of hearing civilian girlfriends,fiances && wives complain when their husbands went away for a week to work when mine had been gone for months an yes he was stateside but I couldn't go see him. So we chatted all day yesterday caught up on the past 8 months. 

With the New Year I doing a Project 365 so that come 2012 I can look back on the year 2011 an see how much life has changed,remember the best memories of my life && hopefully somewhere in there I will capture baby belly pictures. 

I am starting my own jewelry making home business an I am hoping it kicks off really well an I can make money even if its just what I spent on supplies I have spent around $300 on all kinds of bracelets an charms of course I did it when Tony was working so we weren't out of money. Now I am impatiently waiting for ALL my charms,beads an bracelets!

Treats 4 Troops has been really SLOW with donations but the Christmas Care Packages were received as well as the Christmas cards. I have received one email an a letter from one of the guys :) It makes your bad day turn around when you receive a letter or an email you weren't expecting to get either. So with the New Year I am hoping Treats 4 Troops takes off again :) 

I have also started Project Box O' Sunshine but sadly it hasn't taken off the way I hoped it would especially since it was to help send sunshine to those who were battling cancer or other serious illnesses an Military Families who are having a hard time with deployment or loss. I did though send out a care package to a young boy named Justin who is 5 years old an had a brain tumor but one December 7th he went through brain surgery an the tumor was successfully removed!!! He loves Spongebob so I painted the whole inside of the box BRIGHT yellow an it was really cute I used my cricut an spelled out Who Lives N A Pineapple Under The Sea Spongebob Square Pants :) I found tons of Spongebob bath tub stuff in the Christmas aisle so it was a MUST buy once Samantha gets home I will know if Justin got his box or not an what his reaction was. 

That is where I stand with life at this very moment an with the New Year I am going to TRY an blog more :) 

Where oh where should I begin with this one?!?!?!?!

1.)Let's say I am VERY fed up with the moron my husband has been living with for the past almost 9 months!! He is ALWAYS trying to voice his opinion or put his 2 cheap ass cents in on what me an Tony are deciding to do with OUR marriage an OUR life!! The other day Gordon was running his mouth about Tony needed to think Like a Soldier NOT a ninny cause Tony wanted to go to bed since he had to be at work the next morning an I told Tony to ask Gordon what he knew about being a Soldier since Gordon hasn't passed a PT test since 2007!!! An he got kicked of the boarder patrol because of his weight an NOT being able to pass a PT test well guess Gordon was listening super hard cause he follows up with tell your fatass wife she needs to loose weight. I got flamming fucking pissed!! Tony was very pissed as well I laid in bed an cried myself to sleep that night. Gordon tries to tell Tony what to do an when to do it an that he spends too much time talking to me. I am his wife so of course he is going to talk to me!! Gordon is just pissed cause he can't go AD an his life is shitty cause he cheated on his wife an is pretty much loosing the chance to see his daughter we will just say Karma took over there. Not to mention Gordon is now movin 9 hours away from where him && Tony are living now in Alamogordo to Angel Fire which means if Tony were to move with him (if he could that is) he would have to quit his job because there is NO WAY in hell we could afford that drive back an forth to work. Tony can't move with Gordon who was suppose to be his battle buddy an help him out while he was out there but he keeps fucking us in all the wrong ways I might add he is moving up there to be with a girl he was cheating on his wife with so Tony can't go. Plus with the move if Tony could go would put him about 8 hours from his Recruiter.

Last night I guess before Tony went to bed Gordon was talking to him an was trying to tell Tony to force me into moving out to Alamogordo! Are you fucking kidding me?!?!? New Mexico has NOTHING for me or Tony! Tony told Gordon there was no way in hell I would move out there unless Tony had orders for us to be out there from the ARMY other then that it would be a cold day in hell before I moved out there. Tony said if I go home we will live with my in-laws (my parents) til we can get our feet under us,Gordon proceeds with you an your wife (I am never referred to by my name with Gordon) need to get out from under her parents ass! It can only last so long before they kick you out an tell you to get on your feet! I asked Tony I said um how the fuck does Gordon thing you got out to New Mexico?!?! Not our money cause we didn't have any MY dad paid for his plane ticket. Tony went on to explain to Gordon that both my parents are disabled so there for if ther needed something done that they couldn't do themselves or I couldn't do that he could do it. For every reason Tony gave to come home an live at my parents Gordon had a reason not to live with them his last reason was oh your marriage won't last everyone I know who has lived with their in-laws they didn't last. My parents love me an my husband so there is NO problem there.

2.)The ARMY is seriously killing me slowly an with that I am NOT lying. My hair is falling out,I don't sleep,I keep headaches an cry more then I should. We keep getting more an more bad news so with that being said I spoke to an Active Duty ARMY Recruiter on Wednesday an he is the one we were trying to work with when Tony moved down here last year an he is beyond PISSED because almost 9 months later (since Tony has been in NM) but pretty much almost a year later Tony still isn't AD or home with his family. His unit can't do shit right an his Recruiter fucking blows as well. Praying for some kind of good news on Monday if he can't go Active he said he is putting in for another IST volunteering to Deploy an Join up with the Florida National Guard! I don't want him to deploy we have already been apart 8 an half months of our 10 an half months that we have been married but like he said it will support us an give me time to get a car an pay off some bills as well as save money.

3.)My sister's mother in law died last week an yes I am talking about this sister I could care less about cause she doesn't give a fuck about anyone but herself!! She was here yesterday an I woke up to my niece bouncing off the walls so I got up an chatted a bit not important stuff. Well my sister an my niece seen the box my Cricut came in an was asking what it was an all that so I turned it on an showed my niece what it did an I told her if her mom would bring her over while she was out of school next week we could use it an do some crafts like make cards an stuff to send over to the Troops an all that. My sister surprisingly is bringing my niece over to spend time with me!! I think reality FINALLY slapped her in the face the no one lives forever even though we wish they did. So I am looking forward to that.

4.)OMG I have been going to my cousin's to babysit Sunday && Monday of every week an this week was my second week babysitten an can we say 2 sleep deprived women who haven't had sex in almost a year or longer we seem to leave our minds in the gutter. We also hear them sublimental messages they say are in kids movies an shows. Hahahaha an our road trip talks Holy WOWZA is all I can say an the chat with Mr. Talking Tom Cat on my phone in the kitchen hahahahaha You just had to be there to get it.

5.)Treats 4 Troops has kicked off an is doing really well for only being up an going for a month an half it will be 2 months on November 27th! I have sent out 7 care packages so far an around 50 Christmas Cards!! WhooHoo. I have had TONS of donations but hoping to get a steady stream of things coming in so I can get boxes out each month atleast 5 a month is what I am aiming for so wish me luck there.

I believe that is about all I have to share at the moment :)

Never in a Million years will I ever be the nice guy again! It gets me no fucking where. The little ungrateful bitch who was living here with myself && my disabled parents no longer resides here. My mom was in the hospital for almost a week well Tasha thought it was okay NOT to pay rent even though my mom wasn't home. When my mom got home she asked for the rent an the little bitch replies with I don't have it in a very rude way. My mom blew it off the following day before Tasha left for work my mom asked her for the rent money she tells my mom I DO NOT HAVE IT!!! My mom asked where it was she said IN THE BANK an then slammed the door. Well we had money turn up missing an Tasha had drained her savings she asked my mom on Sunday how much money she had saved up an my mom told her she had no savings that she spent it all she had been very rude to my mom an that is a NO GO I texted the bitch an asked her what her issue was she said NO ONE is going to tell her she spent all her money an that if money came up missing why didn't we say anything to her. Hello it is really hard to talk to someone who always has their phone in their hand,ear phones in their ears or only comes home long enough to shower && sleep. She said that we stold from her an she was moving out that she would be by after work on Sunday to get her stuff. Well my dad met her on the front porch told her to sit down they needed to talk he said my wife just got out of the hospital a few days ago an you want to be rude an act a fool that is NOT happening in my house. She said well I am moving out an tried coming inside my dad told her she wasn't getting a damn thing til she turned over her phone to him (its in Anthony's name) she said that is NOT happening my dad well it will be turned off by Tuesday && she said we will fucking see about that well that just pissed my dad off even more an Monday morning he had me up at 9am an at the T-Mobile store shutting the phone off.

Wednesday my mom && I went grocery shopping an came home to a note stuck in the door that read I came to get my stuff you can text me at 863-279-2222 I was like hold the fuck up we turned that number off!! I told my mom had to go to T-Mobile right then an there cause that number is attached to Anthony's account even though its a disconnected line incase we want to reactivate it so its on our account for 90 days. I went to T-Mobile an let's just say an hour in the store && the store rep on the phone we ended up at the Fraud Department. Basically the Coorprate T-Mobile call center did things out of procedure!! So her phone got turned off again. I was sitten there talking with my mom an I get another text from the same damn number I told my mom going back to T-Mobile. I was sitten in the car when my dad pulled up he asked my mom where I was headed she said T-Mobile my dad said well I will be back she doesn't need to be up there incase the bitch shows up cause my parents know I would knock her fucking block off!! My mom said NO just stay home things will be fine. No sooner do I turn into the parking lot the bitch an her pregnant sister are walking across the parking lot to go into T-Mobile. I parked the care walked in an she started yelling you turned off my fucking phone you bitch you had no right I have a prepaid phone now. I tried explaining to her what T-Mobile told me an the instore Rep I was working with. Tasha wasn't having it well there was a customer before us an Damion the one who got the phone turned off both times was there an said if the arguing continued in his store he would have to call the cops I told Damion I was like I am NOT here to argue. Can I please speak with you when you are done with the gentleman you are helping now he said yes Ma'am well when he was done with the other guy the bitch started in again, I looked a Damion an asked him to explain to her what happen an why she couldn't have that number even if she ported it in from another company when we added her to our plan an even though it was turned off. She said she called T-Mobile Prepaid an that was the number they gave her! BULLSHIT Damion asked if they gave her a temporary number she was stumbling over her words her nutcase sister had to answer for her. Damion said then what happen with that number she said I told them I want my number back an they gave it to me Damion said that was all out of procedure && they weren't aloud to do that she went to screaming an all this other shit. I looked at Damion smiled said thank you that is all I needed an walked out the door.

When I got home I threw her shit out in the middle of the yard an my dad was moving an grass was blown all over her shit!!! She brought my phone back it has a few dings but I am trying to sell it so I can either use the money to pay my dad back or to use for the Treats 4 Troops project! I have 2 people interested in buying the phone its a $400 phone. This week has been flat out fucking NUTS that is the only way I can expain it.