This post may hit some sore spots and it may also make people view me a lot differently! So many people love to preach the Bible and judge others! No one should judge anyone that is God's job to do the judging so who are we to judge others? 

He who lives in a glass house should NOT cast stones!

Plain and simple if your hands aren't clean and you aren't living by the book why point out how others aren't living by the book? Most will say Facebook is the devil and causes tons of DRAMA which I will agree it does,however a lot of people bring the DRAMA upon themselves. I seen a post about women lusting over males in a movie you should rethink the reason you got married as well as your morals?!?! Follow me here I see NO harm in drooling over men in a movie that you will NEVER meet in real life and if you do your chances of having a sexual encounter with them is like 1 in 5 million. He who lives in a glass house should NOT cast stones comes in here,why would you post something such as this and expect there NOT to be a debate made out of it? I mean you have had children out of wedlock and biracial children at that so who are you to judge? If you aren't living by the Bible why mention things about others NOT doing the same?!?! 

I believe in God don't get me wrong but if you look around there are MANY people who don't live by the Bible. I know I don't live by the Bible I have had sex before marriage,getting a divorce,curse and so much more that is against the Bible,but I don't really judge others for doing wrong!!

I have seen this a few times where people NEED to learn to practice what they preach. I use to hangout with a girl ALL the time who was all about God and church congratulations just don't push your views and religion on me!! Especially if you aren't living by the book that you claim everyone should be living by. Here is a little in site on this one the girl who was trying to push religion on me had sex BEFORE marriage,got pregnant BEFORE marriage,had a threesome after marriage,did a partner swap during their marriage with another married couple,messed around with another man while still married living with her husband and is now going through a divorce! Please tell me where at in the Bible all this is right? This same girl was judging me cause I was engaged and having sex before marriage and when my fiance at the time said we could have an open relationship on my end I went back to an ex of mine. While yes that was all sin but who was she to judge me when her hands weren't clean? 

I mean again I am NOT preaching just trying to wrap my head around all this for those who claim to be holy or better then others when really they aren't? 

“Who are you to judge the life I live?
I know I'm not perfect
-and I don't live to be-
but before you start pointing fingers...make sure you hands are clean!” 

This blog post will probably be ALL Over the place as it will be nothing but Rants 

Just a few things that piss me off,aggravate me,frustrate me or makes no sense to me.

I just don't get it how is that so MANY people are having babies and I mean this isn't their first or second it is more like their 4th or 10th seriously?!?! Not that I am trying to get pregnant right now just makes me jealous in away knowing that some people can get pregnant just by looking at a man so to speak. I think what gets me the most are the ones who are younger then me or the same age as me being the ones having their 4th and 5th kid. I mean when I see that these people are pregnant they WANT you to say congrats I wish you a smooth pregnancy when that is NOT what I want to say to them. I really want to SCREAM WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!!! Your kids you already have suffer from medical problems because they are born so close together you don't give your body time to heal where its healthy enough to produce a healthy baby. What gets me even more is the ones who have 4-6 or more kids an they all don't have the same dad!!! I mean yeah I understand that people change and move one but kids by 3 or more different mean is well INSANE If you ask me. I just don't get it one bit...Another thing I just don't get are people who are GROWN but hide their pregnancies from friends and family cause I am guessing they are ashamed or don't want to hear the comments they will make but don't hide it so much that you don't get prenatal health til your last month of pregnancy you are harming an innocent child who didn't ask to be brought into this world plus harming yourself!!! I don't want to leave out those "parents" who don't pay attention to their kids,pawn them off on others so you can go party like you are still free,who leave their kids in shitty and pissy diapers for HOURS without changing them. This IRKS the hell out of me too people who don't watch their kids and let them do what they want. Perfect example I was reading a news story the other day where a 18month old was attacked and KILLED by a neighbors dog...Before you say what does this have to do with anything...The mom was getting groceries out of the car NOT watching the baby hello playpen or room behind a baby gate stupid! Any who her child got out of her site walked across the street to the neighbors got to close to the dog and it attacked!! While yes I feel so sorry for the baby that it had to die that way but I also feel sorry for the dog because they took the dog from it's owners and put him down. If you ask me the dog shouldn't have had to be put down...Why you might ask?!?! You won't agree with that statement I am sure however its NOT the dog's fault or the owner of the dogs fault,the dog was just doing what he was trained to do to PROTECT HIS YARD AND FAMILY while yes I understand it was an 18month old the dog didn't know any better intruder was in his yard so he attacked. It is the irresponsible mother's fault because she was NOT watching the child if the dog didn't kill the baby it could have been hit by a car. A tragedy yes but preventable too!!! Parents who don't use car seats or seat belts for their kids who NEED to be in them. I don't like seeing kids up moving around the car freely while its in motion UGH some people should NOT have kids!!!!!

People who say they are going to do something but do the COMPLETE opposite! If you say you are going to do something then please do it!!! Do NOT say you will and never follow through that is a good way to loose friends or hell even family!! That is one thing that pisses me off is people who can't follow through with what they say empty promises anyone?!? No thanks me either..

I can't stand it when I follow someone on blogger,Facebook or Twitter an I comment that I have followed them but they can't have the common courtesy to do the same for me? I mean I comment on every blog I follow with my bloggy URL so they can find me easily yes I know this is just the internet and what I may post might not interest you but just like you I want to build my blog readers so I can have more opportunities with my blog. I am trying to branch out and do more then just toy reviews which I don't mind doing in fact I LOVE doing them. I need more followers so that I can do giveaways for YOU the readers not for me who doesn't like something that is TOTALLY FREE every now and then? I know I do and I know each and everyone of you do too. 

People who text while driving and don't pay attention to the road!! I mean I have dealt with the issue while driving in my everyday little Toyota as well as dealing with moronic 4wheelers (cars & trucks) while I am in the my 18wheeler they are too damn busy texting or doing who knows what an they are all over the road!!! Worst feeling in the world is driving in a 80,000 pound vehicle and someone starts drifting into your lane or they cut you off!! We can't just stop on a dime dumbasses!!! People who tailgate and ride my ass when I am in my 4wheeler and 18wheeler I mean if you are going to ride my ass can you pretty please take me to dinner first and pull my hair while you ride my ass?!?! 

An my final rant for the night is people who talk like they are black when they are white or well people in general who act like they are a different race! If you were born white please act white,if you were born black please act black if you were born Hispanic please act Hispanic!! I mean even if you are acting your race please learn proper English because even if it is a text or online you want to sound somewhat educated and talking like this I is going to dis girl house IRKS the living hell out of me! Please learn to type too cause well reading things that look like this:

 Bbi its ok I promise I realli du if I can du it u can love I wus wit debo no gud cheating ass fa 9 yrs n we hav 3 kids ta gether it hurt like hell it hurt even more ta sty n him treat me like shyt I had ta realize I wus to gud fa dat n I ben takin care of mi kids fa 7 yrs bi miself even wen we wus tagetha he never spent ne moni on mi kids I had ta finalli put him on child support didnt think it would turn out that he would actualli go to wrk n pay I cant stand his sorri no gud ass he dnt even call da kids bday christmas nun but at this point I dnt care ne more but I am very thankful for the childsupprt he pays I finalli get sum help bbi wat um pretty much sayin is its ok to hurt bbi its normal it may not feel that way n its been 2 yrs n it took that long ta find sum1 who actually cares n he wrks n takes care of mi kids not debo all da moni I get fa childsupport is nothing but pay bac fa all da moni ive spent ova da yrs on mi kids wit no help I jus want u ta knw if u need ta talk or ne thing im hea cus thats the worst ting ta go through but also the best thing cus now u can move on n du u 

Can kill a person's brain trying to figure out what in the hell they are talking about!! An people who type like this: I kNoW gIrL hE tOlD mE tHe SaMThinG! He Is SUch A LiAr I caN't BeliEve hE wOUlD dO SucH a ThiNg!! WOWZA typing that hurt my head "/ I just don't get people they need to learn proper English and how to type things out!!!

AH those are my rants for the day :) 

So I have been noticing a lot here lately how many innocent children are being diagnosed with the EVIL "C" word. I mean seriously they are so young and innocent,they still have their whole lives ahead of them then the dreaded thing comes they are told they have Cancer!!! While I have never had to deal with being told my child with cancer personally because I don't have any it still breaks me when I find out that an innocent life has been taken over by something so EVIL!!!

I don't get why people throw that in someone's face I was reading on a friends page who's son has cancer :( He is only FIVE years old well she makes hair bows and what not she let a customer know that she was still with in the time frame of her turn around time and the woman told her that she wanted her money back and it wasn't her fault the woman's son had fucking cancer :*( its not the little one's fault he did NOT go around asking to get the shit how can one be so cruel to ONE an innocent child already going through so much and TWO his family who is going through a lot as well?!?!?

I mean seriously ask yourself before you go around talking about children with cancer how would you feel if you were told your child had cancer at a very young age and how would you feel is someone tried making you feel bad or guilty for being a little behind on something because you were taking care of your sick child who NEVER once ASKED to be the one chosen to have cancer.

Kids go around with hopes and dreams of curing cancer not being the one waiting on a cure for cancer so that they can live a normal life. In the past week I have met 2 more people online who's child is either in remission or was just diagnosed with cancer. It is very sad and heartbreaking when you learn that another small innocent life can be taken away at ANY moment due to this horrid evil thing. There are times that its caught to late simply because of being misdiagnosed with either a tummy flu or simple headaches so they have to go through MILLIONS of tests just to get to the bottom of what is going on with their tiny bodies there are not able to fully fight this EVIL thing off that easy.

So please before you speak ill of a child with cancer or any other medical problem put yourself in those people's shoes!!

Why I say this you might ask cause it is TRUE!!! I mean seriously I get so SICK of being nice to people when does the niceness end? I mean I KNOW I can be a BITCH there is NO DOUBT about that but seriously I TRY not to be that person. I TRY to be positive but its so HARD when all you do is get the short end of the stick or royally monster screwed by everyone you make friends with. I mean yes I have a few wonderful friends online which I really wish they lived closer. All the friends or should I said aquaintences I have here are ALL FAKE I know that is a horrible thing to say but why come to me claim everything is so HORRIBLE in your life,you are broke so you can't hang out or you are trying to safe money so you aren't driving all over the place since gas is now averaging $3.50 where we live. I try to be understanding as I know money does NOT grow on trees however if you know where to find a REAL Money Tree that produces legit bills share the wealth. Do NOT complain to me about having no money when I tell you of places to apply or tell you to register on careerbuilder.com!!! I mean seriously you tell me okay I will look at it but when I tell you of places that are hiring they may NOT say right there on the site the words came from the place hiring itself just APPLY worst that can happen is your application sits for 90 days cause no positions were open but I am sorry retail has a HIGH turnover rate. They are ALWAYS hiring!!! STOP BEING A MORON and get your head out of your ass!!! You are NOT too good to flip a burger or say paper or plastic for $7 or $8 an hour. Yeah it may NOT be much but fuck it helps and it is WAY more then you have now. You just want things handed to you that is why you stick around ugh seriously life isn't EASY that is why its called a BITCH cause damn boy howdy if it was EASY we would all be walking around saying Man Life is a such a SLUT!! Sadly we don't we walk around talking about how hard life is and how BIG of a BITCH it is but we all have to grow up at some point

I am tired of people complaining to me about everything that can go wrong in their life but when I want to talk about what has went,going wrong or what I know can go wrong it does NOT matter to them in their book they are so self absorbed and it is really sickening. I thought a friendship was a two way street with open arms NOT a one way street where its all about one person's feelings all the time. Things on my end are NOT the best at the moment but I TRY not to air my dirty laundry to the world but there are a few who are willing to listen to me whine,bitch,moan,complain and cry when something MAJOR happens. I mean there are a select few I know I can call at 2am to cry about my day.

I am thinking that even though my husband was in the National Guard almost 11 years and is now in the Reserves and has never been deployed Military wives make better friends then the civi girls I am learning that I have tried keeping civi friends cause well damn it there are not any Military Wives in my neck of the woods and if they are they aren't in my town so I would have to travel 30 minutes or so to meet up with them. There are times I wish I lived on Post so that I could make more Military friends but then I hear horror stories there as well. I mean where in the living blue hell are the semi normal people? I seem to alway befriend the whackos and I guess same could be said for me but I have papers what is their excuse haha. I mean all jokes aside though why do I deal with the crazy ones.

To be honest I MISS alot of the people I use to hang out with but we have all grown apart and went our separate ways for whatever reason whether it be moving away,got married or had kids. I mean those are really the only TRUE things I have lost my old crowd too. I wish life was EASY at times and I could get EVERYTHING handed to me but WHY get it all handed to me?!?! I seriously don't think many know the value of a dollar anymore which is ridiculous I was taught that at a very young age. While yes I do splurge here and there but its not like hundreds of dollars at a time.

I would love to sell Scentsy BUT it seems everyone sells it and everyone gives away TONS of FREE stuff which if I sign up I won't be able to do that til we go Active Duty and that could be months!!! I have a feeling that if I can't do all the FREE stuff no one is going to want to buy from me but I can't afford to do it I can barely afford to sign up if I do. I mean if I sign next week after a few small bills and signing we will have $69 to our names for 2 weeks before the next check comes in and well they aren't much but they pay what bills are important. Thankfully we live with my parents but I feel bad in turn because we can't help them as much as I would like.

Or should I say another week of HELL comes to an end!! Thank gosh it has come to an end this week was similar to last week been sick most of the week,dealing with stupid people who don't know how to use common sense and my opinion in my marriage amounting to nothing. I mean if we agree on something or its right there in PLAIN sight in black and white why ask me or do the complete opposite of what we talked about. Seriously I mean come on!!! Why are we even married if my opinions on MAJOR situations are taken in consideration or you say okay we will do it that way but when I am not there or looking you go an do something COMPLETELY DIFFERENT then what we agreed on. I mean use your common sense sometimes I swear I feel like I am talking to a kid instead of my husband. While I understand I am NOT the EASIEST person to live with especially right now you knew when we got together I had mental medical problems and relied on my medicine to control my anger and everything else but,right now we can't afford them let alone a pot to piss in so to speak. I am not going to lie I have been mean and hateful but what can I do I try to control my anger,mood swings and everything else but its hard when I know I need my meds and we can't afford them with only one of us working. I have tried getting a job everything goes good til the interview and even I feel that those go well but never get a call back :*(

I haven't really laid how I feel about things out on the line lately but I am going to be doing it REAL SOON. I mean seriously there are so many people having kids who shouldn't even be having them to begin with I mean come on get with it 23 years old 3 kids and trying for more cause all you have are little boys and you want a little girl?!?!?!?! People seriously need to get a grip on life there was a girl I use to be friends with who claims she is Bipolar and all this other stuff well I believe she is WAY BEYOND that when all the talk of 2012 came about she told me she would rather drown her kids and husband followed by drowning herself before the world came to an end because she would be damned if she was going to burn to death. I mean I am not all that religious or anything but I do believe in God,Devil,Heaven and Hell and well if you ask me if you do a murder suicide you are going to burn in hell!?! So either way she would be burning right? Follow me here NUT CASE!!!

Another thing that gets me is why do people only come to me when they have a problem? I mean I have ENOUGH problems of my own that barely anyone wants to sit and listen to aside from Samantha,Hayley and Crys I mean I listen to EVERY ONE'S problems even if I think they are the stupidest problems in the world. I mean don't come to me complaining about money issues and you not having a job if all you are going to do just as soon as you get money turn around and blow it on non sense shit. Yes I will admit I spend money on unnecessary things here and there but it is VERY RARE!!! Bills first and necessities that we NEED then may go buy things we WANT but the IMPORTANT things are always paid for FIRST!!

I can't stand when people think money is everything and that they must flaunt it when they have it or brag about all the new stuff they just bought. Don't brag about spending a bunch of money then come to me complaining about how you have NO money for food or gas I mean think with your brain. I know a lot of people who stood in the WRONG fucking line when brains were being handed out. God said Brains NOT Trains so do the world a favor go trade your Train in for a Brain.

People around here need to learn to drive I swear to you the Wal*Mart parking lot is one of the WORST places to ever be whether you are driving in the parking lot or walking in it. The other day Anthony and I went to Wal*Mart to grab a few things for care packages and I found a parking spot someone was backing out of it so I was waiting well this other bitch pulls up like blocking the car backing out in an another car was trying to go around the stupid bitch but she kept moving in turn made the other car almost hit me head on. I was on the phone talking to Samantha while all this was going on in the parking lot and the moron who was all pissed over this parking spot rolls down her window are you kidding cuss me over a parking spot I was there FIRST dumbass. Then on the way out walking to the car to get in to leave there was this Toyota truck like literally driving on the back of my flip flops I am sorry that you have to go slow in the parking lot Mr. I am in a fucking hurry. That parking lot will end up being the death of me!!!

Ugh well I am off for the night will blog again later!!!!

This week has been a week from HELL

Monday was a doozie I ended up with NO sleep an at the Emergency Room with my mom thanks to lovely chest pains an since she has already had a heart attack as well as a stroke we can't take a chance with NOT going to the emergency room plus her arm was going numb.

I was there til almost 9pm && we got there at 11:30am so Valentine's Days was wow insane Anthony said he wanted to do something but got pissy cause I was at the hospital with my mom an the ass didn't even have anything planned cause we had NO money to do anything but I sold all my charms,bracelets && everything so I was going to HAVE money but he had no plans so how were we to do anything?

I come home to place my Scentsy order to be told NO we don't have the money!! I had the money it was MINE I earned it bought things with it an sold those things!! I told my friend Jenne I would order from her well I feel horrible I had to back out cause Anthony told me NO we got into a HUGE argument since he spent money $100 on a PSP when he was still in New Mexico without saying anything to me til a week or so after he bought it. I wanted to know what the difference was I mean we still have bills an debt out so I did NOT see any difference there.

Tuesday-Refer to the Blog prior to this one

Wednesday-I wake up puking my guts out ALL day long!! I was completely miserable an have NO clue why I got sick. I was sick all day yesterday too ate some solid foods after not eating for a day things stayed down which I was AMAZED at. Slept some yesterday but NOT much at all an have been up ALL night never went to sleep the icky feeling is starting to settle in again :( So I am dreading that God please let everything stay down!!

Today-I went to Anthony's Ex Wife's myspace page to see when the last time she was on since we have to have her SS number for these ARMY papers it appears that her an her crack headed husband has had twins how true this is I am NOT too sure. I mean she has pictures of her doing everything a mom to be would be doing at a baby shower an doubles over EVERYTHING. When she was with Anthony she faked pregnant along with miscarriages when they were married. If she did have kids I want to know WHY is it that the ones who do NOT deserve them can have them an pop them out like gum balls from a gum ball machine an the ones who long for that precious gift from Heaven can't have it or they have to jump through hoops && over hurdles to get it?!?!?

I am glad this week is coming to an END && a NEW one will be upon us soon!!!

Welp we FINALLY have the ball ROLLING on going Active Duty ARMY hopefully in the next 2 months that will all be done. We have ALL the RIGHT paperwork an Anthony is working on a information packet he needs to have filled out before we go next week to talk with the Main Recruiter at our Recruiting Station. I can't believe its actually happening now..

After more then a year of fights,9 months apart,papers being lost,wrong papers being sent,being told one thing then another we are getting to the point of where we NEED to be so that we can have a steady income && medical insurance if it wasn't for the fact that I need medical insurance an we need a guaranteed amount of money each an every month Active Duty would have NEVER been an option.

With the economy sucking an our President sucking just as bad Active Duty ARMY is the ONLY option we have! We were suppose to see more jobs with Obama in office have we seen them?!?!?! NO We were suppose to all get medical insurance did we get that??? NO

With Active Duty ARMY we will have it ALL now it won't come as an easy sacrifice by any means I will pack && move away from my family an the town I have grown up in,lived in my whole 24 years of life && what little friends I have left here. My MAIN concern with that is leaving my mommy since she has medical problems so money will ALWAYS be a MUST HAVE on hand incase I have to ever do an emergency drive or flight down home.

That is the update on that for now :) More to come

Finally after over a year of waiting,crying,time apart && so MUCH more Anthony has FINALLY been discharged from the New Mexico National Guard!!! It was an Honorable Discharge an now we are able to move forward an NOT look back on the National Guard. Note by no means am I dissing the National Guard they serve && protect too but this Unit really SUCKS!! After getting the Inspector General Involved EVERYTHING was done in a fucking WEEK that has been taking OVER a year to get done an was NEVER done. Over the year we have had papers lost,told things were getting done when really they weren't,pushed aside when the unit came back from Deployment while I know that those Soldiers who came back from Deployment NEEDED the attention an DESERVED it because its a HUGE transition to come back to the states after being at war for a year or more. I just do NOT get how they can just push the other Soldiers aside like they NEVER existed! Which is what the unit did oh we can't do this because we have the Unit back from Deployment an we have to get the Demobilization process done an so on an so forth!! In my opinion I believe they should have a task force who helps Demobilize the Soldiers returning from was as well as a task force to deal with those on REAR D

I mean come on they are all going to need attention!!! An they all deserve the attention they need!!!!

So by far this is the BEST experience I have had so far as an ARMY Wife. Now the Journey Truly begins,Tuesday we will be off to the Active Duty Recruiters with the paperwork we were emailed today so prayers an fingers crossed!!

I have had it with my husband's National Guard Unit!! They can't seem to do an damn thing right!! We have been trying to get Anthony over to the Active Duty side of things so that we can have a steady income,Medical Insurance an be able to get on our feet!! Anthony's unit told him it would be FASTER && EASIER if he went into the Inactive Ready Reserves inorder to go Active Duty ARMY. Well he filled out those papers on December 4th an here we are January 31st an the fucking papers still have NOT been processed. I am tired of living the life of uncertainty with these morons yes I understand the like of an ARMY Wife is full of uncertainty BUT usually it isn't filled with uncertainty of if your husband is going to have to move a few thousand miles away WITHOUT you on your own dime. If Anthony has to return to New Mexico I am NOT really sure what we are going to do considering he will have NO place to live out there an his unit does NOT believe in allowing a Soldier to stay in the barracks at the armory which the last time I checked is for the Soldiers who need a place to live especially while dealing with Military Business. I mean I could be wrong I have talked to several people over the past year && 2 months about this shit an they say something is NOT right an someone of course is NOT doing their job.

Anthony has contacted his 1st SGT to be told to use the Chain of Command well HELLO we have been using the Chain of Command for over a year an it has gotten us NO where but stress,unanswered questions an alot of uncertainty. I understand that the unit he belongs to came back from Deployment in Mayish BUT the Rear D never did anything an once the unit got back from Deployment they pushed Anthony aside. Now after them being home for almost 8 months they still have NOT gotten shit done.

Anthony was able to Drill with the Florida Guard this month BUT that was a one time thing an well they still haven't posted his pay for that we have bills that need to be paid.

I just don't fucking get it!!!

I will have to say that with ordering online the past few days have been CRAZY I am trying to track down an FIX orders that they have messed up aside from that I have been getting an auction together for Treats 4 Troops. I have submitted 2 inquires about being an Adult Toy Tester for 2 places an I got information from one place today && they said they would LOVE to have me!!

With the New Year I was hoping for alot of change for the better NOT the worse but we shall see how that goes. The ARMY still can't get their shit together but what is new there?!?! Not a damn thing a year later an still haven't gotten to where we need to be. I no longer have medical insurance so paying for my meds is going to be HARD unless Anthony gets a job which he has been busting his ass to get one. My meds for a month will cost us around $400 I about died when I looked at the actual price of my meds an $200 of it alone if for NINE migraine pills that is CRAZY as hell if you ask me.

I have made several bracelets as premades for Pez's hoping to kick that off really soon :) I am getting new stuff in an can't wait to get it all!! I am so excited but that is enough for now I am going to write up some reviews .