Sorry I have been MIA around here lately I have been well dealing with life!! I am now blogging on two blogs which is why I haven't been on this one much "/ sorry for my readers who actually follow me and look forward to my posts. I am still looking for a job and still without one,I have been to FOUR interviews an was denied the job along with denial emails from other places I have applied with. Very upsetting and very depressing to say the least! I NEED a job again an soon but it has to be close to home so going back OTR isn't in the question which in a way sucks cause I miss riding around on 18-wheels. 

*sigh*

I did my very FIRST set of video reviews for Ladygasm products it was awkward to say the least but we will see what they think of the videos once they receive them :) I have been earning my points on Eden Fantasys which has been fun and VERY addicting :) I must admit I get on DAILY to earn points even if its NOT the maximum amount I can every little point adds up though. I am in the process of saving up for THREE sexy pieces of lingerie that I can't wait to get in. I think I am done getting actual toys for a bit I have PLENTY to say the least lol I NEVER though I would ever be able to say that I have TOO MANY sex toys :) 

This blog will mostly be reviews,sponsored posts,random rants & rambles that I normally post but the intimate or detailed aspects of my life that I would usually post here have been moved over to a completely private blog. I hope you all still follow me and enjoy reading what I post here.  I thought about taking a break from blogging but I don't think I could really do that,I mean that would be like me saying I was going to close my Facebook or stop having sex hahaha that will NEVER happen!!!

So it has been a few days since I have posted! Lots going on lots to bitch about...

I have been sick and this is the first time in a YEAR since I had my tonsils out that I have been sick so it really sucks!! With being sick I have slacked on my Fertile Focus but my monthly should be here soon so I shall get back on track with tracking my ovulation with Fertile Focus!

I am super tired and super drained!!! So many people are pushing all my WRONG buttons I am so tired of seeing people bitch about people on Foodstamps or Cash Assistance NOT everyone who is on them live off it because they want to,many live off of it because they have NO OTHER CHOICE!! I am also sick of seeing people bitch and want things and help when they aren't even helping themselves so how am I or anyone else for that matter suppose to help them?!?! People say oh they should have to pay it ALL back if you ask me they are on it for a reason so they aren't going to be able to pay it back. I don't agree with the ones who are on Assistance but yet they have their hair done,nails done,drive brand new cars,kids are in name brand clothes and things like that. It also gets under my skin when you have the latest electronics,go out to eat all the time,go to the movies and concerts but are on welfare!! If you are on welfare buying all that you should be able to live without welfare!!! I get so sick of hearing people complain about NOT having money but yet you see them posting that they went to a concert and had damn near front row seats,I know isn't cheap at all! Come on people get it together,I have been out to the movies,dinner and ice cream ONCE in well over a year! If you get assistance from the state YES I can see if you work and want to go out once and a while but all the time to EXPENSIVE places yeah uh NO not flying with me. To each their own of course. I swear it aggravates me when people say oh the people on Assistance don't want to work...What about those who CANNOT work or are on Assistance but busting their asses to try and find a job but turn up empty handed? I mean seriously I personally would love to go to work and not rely on the state for help but when you DO NOT have the funds because you are paying your bills and barely making anything to keep your head above water. I am sure NONE of this is making perfect sense but its okay because this is just my rambles.

I am hoping to get more reviews coming in soon :) I can't wait!!!

So this will just be a bunch Rambles as my new blog name will soon be The Mindless Rambles of My Crazy Life!!! My blog will have a WHOLE NEW LOOK soon thanks to my Battle Buddie Sami :) Oh what would I do without that woman I would be LOST that is what would happen without her. When I am having a bad day or she is having a bad day we call,text or IM each other. I would be lost I wouldn't have anyone to bitch to about the stupid people I encounter daily whether it be in person,text,phone calls or internet.

I see so much that aggrivates me like people violating OPSEC it is there for a reason I mean seriously do you want your loved one coming home safe?!?! I know I do so keep those things to yourself don't post deployment photos of them leaving and do NOT post dates they leave or locations. I mean seriously people can we get a grip on things you can get in trouble as well as your husband who is serving in the Military READ OPSEC if you haven't read it I will gladly share it with you. I mean UGH

I shall blog more tomorrow as this is my 2nd blog today lol

So I have been noticing a lot here lately how many innocent children are being diagnosed with the EVIL "C" word. I mean seriously they are so young and innocent,they still have their whole lives ahead of them then the dreaded thing comes they are told they have Cancer!!! While I have never had to deal with being told my child with cancer personally because I don't have any it still breaks me when I find out that an innocent life has been taken over by something so EVIL!!!

I don't get why people throw that in someone's face I was reading on a friends page who's son has cancer :( He is only FIVE years old well she makes hair bows and what not she let a customer know that she was still with in the time frame of her turn around time and the woman told her that she wanted her money back and it wasn't her fault the woman's son had fucking cancer :*( its not the little one's fault he did NOT go around asking to get the shit how can one be so cruel to ONE an innocent child already going through so much and TWO his family who is going through a lot as well?!?!?

I mean seriously ask yourself before you go around talking about children with cancer how would you feel if you were told your child had cancer at a very young age and how would you feel is someone tried making you feel bad or guilty for being a little behind on something because you were taking care of your sick child who NEVER once ASKED to be the one chosen to have cancer.

Kids go around with hopes and dreams of curing cancer not being the one waiting on a cure for cancer so that they can live a normal life. In the past week I have met 2 more people online who's child is either in remission or was just diagnosed with cancer. It is very sad and heartbreaking when you learn that another small innocent life can be taken away at ANY moment due to this horrid evil thing. There are times that its caught to late simply because of being misdiagnosed with either a tummy flu or simple headaches so they have to go through MILLIONS of tests just to get to the bottom of what is going on with their tiny bodies there are not able to fully fight this EVIL thing off that easy.

So please before you speak ill of a child with cancer or any other medical problem put yourself in those people's shoes!!

Why I say this you might ask cause it is TRUE!!! I mean seriously I get so SICK of being nice to people when does the niceness end? I mean I KNOW I can be a BITCH there is NO DOUBT about that but seriously I TRY not to be that person. I TRY to be positive but its so HARD when all you do is get the short end of the stick or royally monster screwed by everyone you make friends with. I mean yes I have a few wonderful friends online which I really wish they lived closer. All the friends or should I said aquaintences I have here are ALL FAKE I know that is a horrible thing to say but why come to me claim everything is so HORRIBLE in your life,you are broke so you can't hang out or you are trying to safe money so you aren't driving all over the place since gas is now averaging $3.50 where we live. I try to be understanding as I know money does NOT grow on trees however if you know where to find a REAL Money Tree that produces legit bills share the wealth. Do NOT complain to me about having no money when I tell you of places to apply or tell you to register on careerbuilder.com!!! I mean seriously you tell me okay I will look at it but when I tell you of places that are hiring they may NOT say right there on the site the words came from the place hiring itself just APPLY worst that can happen is your application sits for 90 days cause no positions were open but I am sorry retail has a HIGH turnover rate. They are ALWAYS hiring!!! STOP BEING A MORON and get your head out of your ass!!! You are NOT too good to flip a burger or say paper or plastic for $7 or $8 an hour. Yeah it may NOT be much but fuck it helps and it is WAY more then you have now. You just want things handed to you that is why you stick around ugh seriously life isn't EASY that is why its called a BITCH cause damn boy howdy if it was EASY we would all be walking around saying Man Life is a such a SLUT!! Sadly we don't we walk around talking about how hard life is and how BIG of a BITCH it is but we all have to grow up at some point

I am tired of people complaining to me about everything that can go wrong in their life but when I want to talk about what has went,going wrong or what I know can go wrong it does NOT matter to them in their book they are so self absorbed and it is really sickening. I thought a friendship was a two way street with open arms NOT a one way street where its all about one person's feelings all the time. Things on my end are NOT the best at the moment but I TRY not to air my dirty laundry to the world but there are a few who are willing to listen to me whine,bitch,moan,complain and cry when something MAJOR happens. I mean there are a select few I know I can call at 2am to cry about my day.

I am thinking that even though my husband was in the National Guard almost 11 years and is now in the Reserves and has never been deployed Military wives make better friends then the civi girls I am learning that I have tried keeping civi friends cause well damn it there are not any Military Wives in my neck of the woods and if they are they aren't in my town so I would have to travel 30 minutes or so to meet up with them. There are times I wish I lived on Post so that I could make more Military friends but then I hear horror stories there as well. I mean where in the living blue hell are the semi normal people? I seem to alway befriend the whackos and I guess same could be said for me but I have papers what is their excuse haha. I mean all jokes aside though why do I deal with the crazy ones.

To be honest I MISS alot of the people I use to hang out with but we have all grown apart and went our separate ways for whatever reason whether it be moving away,got married or had kids. I mean those are really the only TRUE things I have lost my old crowd too. I wish life was EASY at times and I could get EVERYTHING handed to me but WHY get it all handed to me?!?! I seriously don't think many know the value of a dollar anymore which is ridiculous I was taught that at a very young age. While yes I do splurge here and there but its not like hundreds of dollars at a time.

I would love to sell Scentsy BUT it seems everyone sells it and everyone gives away TONS of FREE stuff which if I sign up I won't be able to do that til we go Active Duty and that could be months!!! I have a feeling that if I can't do all the FREE stuff no one is going to want to buy from me but I can't afford to do it I can barely afford to sign up if I do. I mean if I sign next week after a few small bills and signing we will have $69 to our names for 2 weeks before the next check comes in and well they aren't much but they pay what bills are important. Thankfully we live with my parents but I feel bad in turn because we can't help them as much as I would like.

So I come home from doing a few errands an there is a box laying on my front steps an for the life of me I couldn't figure out what it could be because I swore the box was too BIG to be charms or my toy for the tester/review program! Boy was I WRONG yep inside I found the Wall Banger Rabbit Pearl :) Stay tuned for the review to come. I believe that shower time is going to be AMAZING not that it isn't to begin with since I save water && shower with my Soldier :)