Well I have been wanting to find away to start helping bring in money to our home! I took the plunge and signed to sell Scentsy!! It is AMAZING it is a "wickless candle" its yummy smelling food grade wax (like they spray on apples) and the scent lasts way longer then a candle and they are also A LOT safer. I have had many discouraging moments in the very short time I have been selling Scentsy not even a WEEK and I am so close to being Certified!! I can't wait I am trying to get there with out overly pushing the fact that I need to get Certified!! I am hoping that with Scentsy I can save enough money up with all my commission to take a vacation to meet the in-laws.

I have dealt with some nut cases over the past few days too and tons of DRAMA over me signing to sell and who I chose to sign under. GET OVER IT!! I have medical problems too hence why I don't work a regular job and I was just trying to help someone who needed help as well as try to atleast sell enough to be able to get my meds and all back didn't know that was a crime. You claim you are BROKE but I see you in all these groups and forums BUYING stuff seriously and I am the liar look in the mirror sweetie!!

The past week has been insane other then trying to get sales. Anthony has been working til 4,5 and ever 6 in the morning when he is suppose to get off at like 11pm the paycheck will look amazing but ugh our schedules are so screwed up and now he is working til 5am til May this is going to be where I get worn down and go insane!!!

I am usually NOT the Jealous type but you can only hear someone talk about everything they have that you long for!! I mean yes EVERY woman who has her head on straight should get the experience of a lifetime by carrying a baby within her body that is what woman do!! While so called friends know my chances of having kids are at 40% or less due to medical problems they still somehow ONLY know how to talk about themselves and their unborn children when we talk! Yes I get you are pregnant and yes I get you are excited but I would like to hear more then I want to know what this baby is,its bouncing around,oh I am not sure the baby likes this food or that one. I mean people are popping out kids who don't need another one cause they can't handle the one they have let alone afford it!!

I know my wedding was a hole in the wall thrown together wedding! Why because we were BROKE when we got married Anthony had a huge probability of deploying so we did it cheap and easy or so we thought it was going to be that way but everyone put their 2 cents in where they probably should NOT have since they didn't hold their end of the plans. I was left high and dry doing EVERYTHING for my wedding since 2 unnamed people we suppose to plan my bridal shower and help with the wedding but bailed last minute. I was going to get married in a skirt and blouse not a dress even though I wanted to but a friend insisted I needed a wedding dress and she would pay for the whole thing in full but some how I paid $50 my dad paid $75 and she paid $50! Said she would pay my dad back and never did. My so called sister was suppose to come over the morning of my wedding to help me and my mom prepare the food and what not did she help NO she showed up at 2pm the wedding was to start at 4pm in that 2 hours she helped with NOTHING other then tying me in my dress.

Needless to say I am so sick of people rubbing their baby bellies and their fancy dancy weddings in my face!! We didn't have the money and probably can't have kids so why pour salt into an open wound especially if you know my situation!! I earn EVERYTHING I have or I worked for it at one point or another!! If I didn't my husband did so we deserve it while yes I am sure most everyone else's worked for their stuff too but it doesn't matter when you throw it around like monopoly money or buy bullshit stuff before paying bills or without keeping money aside to get you through til the next paycheck!!!

I am so ready to move out of town,change my name,number and looks just to get away from everyone!! I should NOT have to feel this way I am a good person but somehow get the shitty end of the stick in every friendship I try to have with an exception of a few!!

So this will just be a bunch Rambles as my new blog name will soon be The Mindless Rambles of My Crazy Life!!! My blog will have a WHOLE NEW LOOK soon thanks to my Battle Buddie Sami :) Oh what would I do without that woman I would be LOST that is what would happen without her. When I am having a bad day or she is having a bad day we call,text or IM each other. I would be lost I wouldn't have anyone to bitch to about the stupid people I encounter daily whether it be in person,text,phone calls or internet.

I see so much that aggrivates me like people violating OPSEC it is there for a reason I mean seriously do you want your loved one coming home safe?!?! I know I do so keep those things to yourself don't post deployment photos of them leaving and do NOT post dates they leave or locations. I mean seriously people can we get a grip on things you can get in trouble as well as your husband who is serving in the Military READ OPSEC if you haven't read it I will gladly share it with you. I mean UGH

I shall blog more tomorrow as this is my 2nd blog today lol

So I have been noticing a lot here lately how many innocent children are being diagnosed with the EVIL "C" word. I mean seriously they are so young and innocent,they still have their whole lives ahead of them then the dreaded thing comes they are told they have Cancer!!! While I have never had to deal with being told my child with cancer personally because I don't have any it still breaks me when I find out that an innocent life has been taken over by something so EVIL!!!

I don't get why people throw that in someone's face I was reading on a friends page who's son has cancer :( He is only FIVE years old well she makes hair bows and what not she let a customer know that she was still with in the time frame of her turn around time and the woman told her that she wanted her money back and it wasn't her fault the woman's son had fucking cancer :*( its not the little one's fault he did NOT go around asking to get the shit how can one be so cruel to ONE an innocent child already going through so much and TWO his family who is going through a lot as well?!?!?

I mean seriously ask yourself before you go around talking about children with cancer how would you feel if you were told your child had cancer at a very young age and how would you feel is someone tried making you feel bad or guilty for being a little behind on something because you were taking care of your sick child who NEVER once ASKED to be the one chosen to have cancer.

Kids go around with hopes and dreams of curing cancer not being the one waiting on a cure for cancer so that they can live a normal life. In the past week I have met 2 more people online who's child is either in remission or was just diagnosed with cancer. It is very sad and heartbreaking when you learn that another small innocent life can be taken away at ANY moment due to this horrid evil thing. There are times that its caught to late simply because of being misdiagnosed with either a tummy flu or simple headaches so they have to go through MILLIONS of tests just to get to the bottom of what is going on with their tiny bodies there are not able to fully fight this EVIL thing off that easy.

So please before you speak ill of a child with cancer or any other medical problem put yourself in those people's shoes!!