Well I am not sure where to begin on this one! This week has been complete HELL!!! I am so tired of people thinking they can run over me && my parents. We reach out to help others but yet we are the ones who get FUCKED OVER in the end. We have a so called "friend" of mine living with us but she pay $60 a week an my mom puts $30 up to help Tasha save which is all fine an dandy but when you take back what you are suppose to be saving what's the point when all you do is keep taking it back. This past week Tasha ran out of money so in turn since she withdrew over $160 from her bank account an drained her savings as well that is NOT my problem but damn it do NOT steal from me && my family when we are trying to help you. In the beginning when she moved in she would help around the house like take the garbage out,wash dishes I mean simple tasks come on how hard is it to do fo an able bodied person?!?!?!? She totally ruined my birthday an my change of going back to school anytime soon. She told me I could use her truck to go back an forth to Tampa for school an that she would help pay for gas an what not! I was EXCITED as hell because I was approved for almost $5,000 in a pell grant along with getting Tony's GI Bill through the Military to go back to school. I talked about it an even fucking dreamed about going to school starting my own photography business. The day of my birthday we were suppose to be in Tampa at 1pm Tasha said no biggie I will allow you to take the Truck or we can go together. I went got a shower && got dressed did my hair an was ready to go to the school to view an tour the campus an meet with the Finanacial Advisor. I walked out the door to her telling me I am not trying to bring you down anymore then you already are && know that we love you but I have been thinking about it the past few days an I don't feel comfortable with you taking my truck to Tampa it is old an there is so much wrong with it. It crushed me on my birthday at that to do this to me are you fuckjing kidding. The day went on an it got worse as it got closer to the ti,me to go out to dinner mom told me that dad didn't feel good so he wasn't going to be going out with us :( So me,mom,Tasha && Jessica all went to Apple Bees for dinner well dad offered to send money for my meal but Tasha said she had it!! When the bill came she was pissed off cause it was $42 which wasn't bad for 2 full meals,2 sodas,an appitizer && then I had to HUGE drinks. On the way home she was quite with nothing to say I asked her if she wanted to go to Boots for more drinks an a good night out she said she didn't care that it was up to me cause it was my birthday well I asked if she wanted to go get a movie an we could watch a movie at home. She said I don't have anymore money I am completely broke. I had $20 my dad gave me to out to get my drunk on. I mean its not like I asked her to pay for the stupid movie I was going to pay for it an ever since she has been a royal BITCH I mean seriously get the damn porccupine out of your ass for real there is no need for the major attitude when no one did a damn thing to you. Get pissed cause no one else will do your laundry.cook your meals && your phone bill got raised. Don't get mad at me when you are the one who said you would NOT be using the phone til after 9pm when the minutes were free but now you are using well over a 100 minutes when my husband needs those minutes to deal with Military Business! Then the past few days she has been leaving dishes in the sink,up way passed the time everyone else is,comes home at 2:30am which is getting really fucking old have respect for the people who are disable (my parents) who are usually asleep at that hour. Yesterday my mom && I went shopping as we normally do at the first of the month well we got home an I was bringging in the stuff we had bought in the house an she just sat there an watched me bring it all in cause she was pissed off at me. I had called her 2 different times an she sent me to voicemail then I texted her to remind her to fill her meds && she replies with I will be just fine an I don't have money. SERIOUSLY you just got paid where the hell have you spent all your money I asked where it all went she said I am helping my parents I asked with an she replies with I am not trying to be rude but I hate when people ask what I am doing with my money. I mean it makes no sense that she is helping the same family that pretty much wants nothing to do with her because she is a lesbian that is why she got kicked out of her mom's house cause her parent's don't believe in same sex relationships. I mean my family doesn't judge but be considerate of the people who are trying to help you when your family is trying to kick you when you are down an is more worried about your 20 year old unwedded sister who is pregnant by a 38 year old Meth head. Like this morning I get up eat breakfeast,take my meds && then something just told me to rearrange the living room the way my mom wanted it well Tasha woke up seen me moving shit around but kept walking never offered to help or nothing she went an sat outside on the swing on her phone.






Last night I went to clean the bathroom that only her an I use well I am NOT a nasty person I shower once or twice a day depending on the day but she on the other hand i believe showers every other day or so. I went to clean the bathroom an it was so NASTY!!! There was MAJOR ring around the toilet above the water line for real how in the hell!! I was trying to hard to scrub down everything an used bleach,Fabuloso && some other stuff an the fumes got to me bad I got really lite headed couldn't breath && almost passed out. I went to use my parent's bathroom to get a shower an well their's is broken so you have to work with the nob but I didn't know how to do it but I managed to get a shower. Laundry needs done but why should I have to do my laundry an her's she acts as if we are married an well if that is the case think it is time for a DIVORCE!! I am married to a MAN I like DICK!! Now don't get me wrong alot of of my friends are lesbian or gay. I am so flipping aggervated with this girl && if it was NOT for the fact that Tony is not Active Duty yet she would be gone!!





On to another topic witht he Military && the moron my husband is staying with in New Mexico. The other day Gordon came home an asked Tony if he loved me an he said no lol that is a STUPID question to ask I mean Hello he talks about me all the time an I am his world. Gordon in turn says man I wished I would have recorded that so that I could call Amber an tell her an let her listen to it. Tony said go ahead you will get cussed out an my wife knows when I am being sarcastic. I seriously do NOT like this moron that Tony is staying with but it was the only place in New Mexico he could go to an have a roof over his head. The moron is just pissed cause my husband is going Active Duty ARMY when his fat ass hasn't passed a PT test since 2007 Gordon was on the Border Patrol Mission but he got kicked off!! Wow Karama is a bitch isn't she?!?!?!?!



Good note Tony signed the paperwork to breach the contract with the National Guard && signed the rank reduction papers on Thursday!!! Which means we are one step closer to the Active Duty side!! Thank you Lord for being on mine && Tony's side as there wasn't going to be any Drill weekend for the month of October something about no funds or some BS. But Tony stressed to one of the SFC. that we rely on that money each an every month. So him an another Soldier who took Tony to Drill made so extra cash as well. Wish we could say it was just extra money for us. I am so ready to be able to have a place to call my own with my furniture,my decorations && my style with my husband in bed next to me each an every night that he isn't training or out in the field.



I have also started a Project Treats 4 the Troops an I am so ready to get it off the ground I have a blog that I will blog on everyday. I am doing 3 Halloween boxes an I am so EXCITED to do them. One box is for a girl who is on the MSH Forum that I put together she requested one for her husband,then I am sending one to my friend Holly's husband they are both Deployed :( Then I am going to go to a site called anysoldier.com an get the address to a Female Soldier an send her a box as well. Now these boxes aren't just filled with candy they are also getting the needs like toothbrushes,toothpaste,dental floss,hand sanatizer,tampons an pads for the ladies an so much more!! I have a spot where you can donate money through Paypal that will he with the cost of shipping && putting the items in the boxes. My mom bought 20 tubes of toothpaste today && we are suppose to go get tooth brushes,dental floss && some other items tomorrow. But the shopping for extras all depends on if my mom is out of the hospital right now we are sitten in Critical Care Room #20 mom is in pain an I know she hates coming to the hospital so much but we all know it is in her best interest.





I would really LOVE to get on the internet an post on my other blog,the forum,maintain the other pages I have an hell maybe even play a little Farmville or Yoville or even my Happy Aquriaum. Ahhh the bordem an my phone has NO signal so can't get on the internet with it. Hoping we aren't here forever an a day waiting to find out if they are going to keep her or what they are going to do. Don't get me wrong I love my mom but hospitals is NOT the place I wanna hang out with her at. I mean we do hold interesting conversations no matter where we are at but the monitors an all get really annoying!! Beep Beep Beep......That is all I head other then people breathing. An OMG I know this is going to be TMI but I went to pee an the bathroom stunk so bad like Raspberries an a pile of SHIT. OMG gag me I almost threw up all over the place.